adrift in salt and sugar | Moorea + Tahiti
/She said that there was a small craft advisory; the ferry was probably one size over a small craft. The Pacific storm that caught us mid-crossing rolled the slow, cumbersome craft that lumbered through the channel from Moorea to Tahiti. Internally you could hear the creaks on the tie ropes that secured cars in place; buckles straining to contain crates of pineapples and breadfruit returning to the big island. Short, sharp rain lashed the deck of the ferry; the small handful of people on board mostly sheltered inside until the relative stillness of the lagoon that ringed Tahiti. We came back into Port with the realisation that we had just been there; that in the rest of the world time had passed forgotten, through the days dissolving in saltwater, the line between morning and evening blurred by tides and light.
The Windward Islands were satisfyingly delineated; the dark velveteen waters of the wider Pacific broken by rings of reef in their myriad of opaline turquoises; cobalt-flecked waves lulling into the glassy lagoon. Then the rings of beaches; a mix of vanilla-donut soft; meringue-fragile grains like powdered sugar on a pastry; to the coarser beaches of caramelised cane sugar and toasted coconut; candied ginger. The sea, the reef, the lagoon, the beaches, the ring of protectors of the island’s jurassic interior. Describing it as mountainous would be generous, from the tropical beach roads skirting placid lagoons it was as if granite sentinels grew upwards into southern skies. Some jagged, some cutting, some looking like dark grey popsicles frosted by the heavy layer of cloud that eternally lingered. The sun would beat down on the coast, illuminating the blues of the lagoons as opal shifted with every ray of light, while Moorea’s interior silently brooded under clouds the colour of aging bruises; as if the mountains harbored some jealousy of the pagent-winning beaches.
The idea of jealous mountains and flaunty beaches is really not that out of reach, on these ancestral islands. While driving we passed Cook’s Bay and Pau Pau - quiet, glossy, inky bays, watched over by the hilly interior. The water of the bays never paled like a jade amulet in the light; sun rays never danced in a lapis chorus over waves. The waves stayed a fractured crystalline green, indigos pooling like spilled ink. In fact, that was the ancient story - that God resented the division of the people following the arrival of white settlers, so he released octopus ink into the bays as he disappeared into the hills. The signs alongside the bays never shared the ending; but as fleets of yachts came into the inlets to moor in the stillness, grouping in whites and greys like seabirds, like scattered shells, I did wonder what he saw, from his perch in the shadowed ridgelines.
Because it is hard in some ways to pin down memories that drift like sand and salt. Maybe it was the effects of 12 hours of jetlag and 24 hours of travel to an island seemingly clinging onto the end of the world by coral and kelp forests. Perhaps it was the intensely sunburnt skin from beach days, legs going caramel; limbs now darker than some of those souffle sands. The gentle lagoon tides washed tiny coves creating private beaches with nothing but an overhanging palm for company; a dog barked in the distance; the tin roofs of a beach house glinted in the sun; the surface of the water wobbled like a mirror. A wrought iron gate was washed by sea; a palm-frond structure concealed a canoe; a small girl jumps off the rocks into tepid water; so clear the sun reflected into crystals on wet skin. Small, benign, ditsy tropical fish flitted through the shallows; a ray passed by twice in the day, a commuter perhaps; in a rush to catch the ebbing tide home.
It would be only that ray, really, who was in any kind of rush. Despite the hilliness of the roads, the pace of driving in Moorea was a bit like the lagoon - languid, mostly peaceable, with a breaker from time to time. Children rode bikes out of villages and directly into the ocean; families picnicked on baguettes in tiny beachside parks, giant pickups towed boats and jet skis. Pocket-sized kiosks were set up all along the coastline, their thin wooden structures heaving with produce: watermelon, papayas, cosy breadfruit, honeyed pineapple. It was in fact, the Route de Ananas - the pineapple road - that bravely bisected the jagged interior and headed straight to Belvedere lookout. It rained hard during that drive; every sense evoking the familiarity of the true tropics in heavy rain - the red runoff into concrete gutters; mud splashed onto ankles from flip flops; the rich, warm smell of the earth. In the foothills were emerald-drenched pastures, streaked with flashes of yellow from banana trees. From nowhere, a clearing, a herd of rainforest horses. They appeared in shades of the tropics themselves - cinnamon bark, tamarind, toasted cacao flanks glistening against the wet grass.
But the mix of salt and rainwater is heady; the magic has always been where the forest meets the sea. It is the fertile silt that feeds the ocean, so that acres of turquoise glass, indigo wash, and lapis shimmer become an unwitting playground for giants. If the hold on the memories was thin, the sun burns peeling, the sound of the whales seems yet to have faded. A lolling vibration that fills your body, the song of the universe, floating through sunburnt skin and into your heart. The humpbacks sung as they played in kelp; a mother; her juvenile calf and an unrelated male, seeking company after the long journey from the frigid Antarctic. They too rolled and revelled in the clear tropical waters, relief from their long journey, flippers and marshmallow-white bellies to the sun. A duo of dolphins surfed the waves; a turtle rode the swell; we were far out of the calm of the channel, in the true blue ocean, an unfathomable sapphire expanse .
Silent and unseen, a trio of black tip sharks investigate the boat, graceful and benign, curious about the newcomers in their liquid realm. A visit from a Pacific white tip shark catches the attention of our captain; hanging onto the awning; his back and chest covered with Polynesian tattoos, the tooth of a shark through his pierced ear. The Polynesians do little to hide their love and respect for the ocean and land that surrounds them; nor should they. From the coconut-cream tides lapping the pineapple custard beaches of the lagoons; the way the fractured light moved over the crystal clarity of the prismic reef, the way the ocean’s bounty kissed the feet of the verdant jungle, they are the protectors of a gift. A gift that seems less a place than a dream, dissolving even as you try to hold it, but lingering in the body like salt on the skin.
Small craft advisory or not, we did return to Papeete, acting as if we were shocked that there would be more than one heavily improvised, retrofitted Dodge Ram on the road. We stayed outside of the city, in a small cluster of three palm-frond cabanas, down an unpaved road frequented by quietly chatting chickens, a gossip of mumbling mynahs and a small, shy dog. Before our last beach day we took a hike through the neighbourhood, steadily climbing under southern sun, the sun that ripens copper-blushed papayas on verdant trees; leaves mangos scattered on tin roofs and leaves hibiscus blooming like in a symphony of sunset orange, flamingo pink, buttercream yellow. With the Pacific glinting behind us, I construct my wedding bouquet, again dowsed in a dream, continuing to drift between what I will hold onto and what I will soon struggle to place. A waterfall ribbons steeply out of the jungle, dense like syrup, our footfalls scare small tropical birds up into a sugar-blue sky.
That last beach day took us to the local favourite Plage de Vaiava, a relative rarity for Polynesian beaches in that it was the archetype of a tropical beach. Long and curved, sand slightly lighter in colour than a caramel flan; perhaps more lychee cream; and lined by coconut palms heavy with fruit. It is a popular beach, its early stretch ripe for people watching - small children from one of the local garderies playing in the shade of palms; Polynesian teenagers composing photos; a couple canoodle on a surfboard. We walked further along to what felt like another castaway beach, crystal waters lapping fallen coconuts; the fruit perhaps from a grove of palms that provided relief from unrelenting sun. In the grove it was cool, tiny hermit crabs frolicked in the roots, tangles of hibiscus and vanilla vines grew over iron fences.
We swam again in that magical water, yet to become less unreal, yet to feel less dreamlike. Perhaps it was the effects of sun, but the reality never really returned at night, in Tahiti or in Moorea. In Moorea, a family of dogs inspect a garden left to grow into another jungle tangle; mynahs sing their dusk song from the rooftop; cicadas chorus from around the pool. The sunset in Tahiti did little to ground us in reality since the ember reds, oranges and sorbet peaches and purples seem to have come out of the heat of a dream. We were just darkened shadows against a tropical sky in flux, moving over Tahiti, to kiss Moorea’s mountains; to mix with mountain rain, to flow back towards the beaches, so in some way, the sky returns to the water.
On our last day at the beach I lay in the sun, to dry off after chasing tiny fishes following drifting coconuts. The heat of the sand seeping through my towel, the dazzle of the sun leaving me lost and unmoored. I floated, out and over the banana pudding beaches; the vanilla-cream waves, the lagoon; surely made from crystal. Up and over the sentinel mountains and the pistachio-green jungle, sugared at the edges with mist. Floated over the deep blue, where sharks and rays drifted; just quiet spirits, where whales sang their heart song in their honeyed expanse. I ate purple taro ice cream from the little shop where every morning a large, smiling Polynesian man delivered fresh pastries; I stepped on a mango getting out of the car, I rode in the car in just my bikini, salty skinned and sweetened by the day. The days did not quite end; they melted, like sugar into frosting. Into tide, into heat, into tanned skin. Memory itself softened, fluid as the sea, sweet as the fruit of the tropics, dissolving between dream and daylight. And maybe that is the way of islands: to keep you adrift, half-dissolved in salt and sugar, belonging to no place except the dream itself.
“You're in the wind, I'm in the water
Nobody's son, nobody's daughter”
Lana del Rey, Chemtrails over the Country Club
ps. happy anniversary Prune girl <3 thank you for sending the whales to us